You know you are meant to be when...
...the same MHT I wrote about in THIS POST led today's group orientation for us new employees. It could have been any other staff member to lead the first group session. But nope. It was one I had seen before (too bad he didn't remember me though). Today's session was about verbal de-escalation and how to bring someone down from a crisis situation. I was like for real?! Is this really happening? I remember having a conversation with my sister on the 3rd of this month; I was going to give myself until the end of the month. If I didn't have a job, I was going to go back to Ohio for a bit until I got myself sorted.
Ya'll, I really hate to preach, but it's God. It's ALL God! Nothing else. As I have said again and again, I asked Hiim to just give me a job. But He didn't just give me a job, He gave me my dream job just because He could. I really wish I wouldn't have doubted Him as often as I did; He knew what He was doing right from the get go. I wish I had learned some of what I learned today so that I could have de-escalated myself! But for now, bygones will be bygones; I've made my peace with the situation and have asked for forgiveness. I realized the error of my ways. So yes, once again...and as always, God was right. I still have lots of training to go through, including 3 more group classes. Next week I'll orientate for 2 days on my unit (well...afternoons/evenings, since I'm second shift). After today's class, I realize that it's going to be a challenge; this place, the patients I'll be working with, the environment. But for some reason that perhaps I'll never be able to explain, it just feels...right. I'm anticipating that the crap is going to hit the fan a lot, but this is where I'm meant to be. If you really think about it, mentally ill patients are people too; they're like us, but their minds are just wired differently. I think that's what attracted me to mental illness/behavioral health in the first place; it's scary yet fascinating! I'm hoping to deal with the more fascinating than the scary, but we'll see. It's not even officially day one yet.
Ya'll, I really hate to preach, but it's God. It's ALL God! Nothing else. As I have said again and again, I asked Hiim to just give me a job. But He didn't just give me a job, He gave me my dream job just because He could. I really wish I wouldn't have doubted Him as often as I did; He knew what He was doing right from the get go. I wish I had learned some of what I learned today so that I could have de-escalated myself! But for now, bygones will be bygones; I've made my peace with the situation and have asked for forgiveness. I realized the error of my ways. So yes, once again...and as always, God was right. I still have lots of training to go through, including 3 more group classes. Next week I'll orientate for 2 days on my unit (well...afternoons/evenings, since I'm second shift). After today's class, I realize that it's going to be a challenge; this place, the patients I'll be working with, the environment. But for some reason that perhaps I'll never be able to explain, it just feels...right. I'm anticipating that the crap is going to hit the fan a lot, but this is where I'm meant to be. If you really think about it, mentally ill patients are people too; they're like us, but their minds are just wired differently. I think that's what attracted me to mental illness/behavioral health in the first place; it's scary yet fascinating! I'm hoping to deal with the more fascinating than the scary, but we'll see. It's not even officially day one yet.
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