Am I bothered?

 When you work in addictions, death is a part of the disease. Sort of comes with the territory. Seems like every day on the news there's someone else who's died of an overdose. In my world multiple overdoses from the same person are common. Not to mention the deaths of diseases resulting from addiction; end stage liver disease, HIV that progresses into AIDS, you name it. Does that mean it's easier? You tell me. In today's society it seems we have become so de-sensitized to a death from addiction. In other words, we're used to it. 

We found out a short while ago a client died. We still do not know the circumstances. I was talking to my boss about it. "Are you bothered by it?" I shrugged and said sure I am. Death is death. We think we are so infinite but the truth is we're not. Someone who was in this world now is no longer. They were someone's brother, friend, neighbor, father, cousin, son, daughter, sister, mother, grandson, granddaughter. So yes I suppose I am bothered. I still remember hearing about my first patient death. Had been in the field less than 6 months. Died of an overdose. Still remember their name. But I think the world of nursing sort of trains you to deal with death; I guess one would have to if you worked in an area like the ED or ICU. I on the other hand, hope I never get used to death. I think I would be worried if I did.