Dedication to the extreme

 Listen y'all. I love my job. You know I do. Sometimes I'm just tired though. 

Ever since I started this job, other than holidays, I've only taken 2 days off. 2. And one of them wasn't even for anything fun or relaxing (unless you consider going to the dentist and cleaning out your moved out of apartment fun). Let me just give you all a snapshot of what I deal with on an almost daily basis: 

For 2 days out of the week, I'm in the office for almost 10 hours. 

I have approximately 40 injection clients (either vivitrol or long acting suboxone). So I'm responsible for not only administering them (duh), but scheduling them, ordering/re-ordering them, making sure they're compliant with all the lab work requirements, calling certain specialty pharmacies (because they HAVE to be ordered through a specialty pharmacy) that don't communicate for beans so I have to track down the orders and schedule the deliveries. Some of them call me ahead of time which is nice).  

I'm responsible for out of our 3 providers 1 of their scheduling for the clients for the day, making sure everything goes well and being available if there are any needs that arise. 

For EVERY new admission, I am the first one they see. So I have to put on all my stuff, possibly exposing myself to Covid or God knows what else, making sure they are eligible for admission into our program, making sure everyone else knows they're eligible, keeping everyone else on schedule on top of dealing with other things that arise. (sometimes my mornings are VERY busy on admission days). 

And with everything else I have to do, I have the program director asking me to do xyz, I have support staff breathing down my neck constantly about who needs to come in for a drug screen, the front desk constantly getting calls about clients who miss appointments and then want me to wave my magic wand and ask the providers for scripts, then they get mad at us when I tell them they need to come in and that we don't just give scripts out like candy. Providers wanting me to do call-backs, get labs, do prior authorizations, do office inductions and anything else, then more getting breathed down my neck because oops, I forgot to call xyz to come in for a drug screen. Then I get the occasional flog when I kindly point out that anyone can do this but then program director and my medical supervisor says "well, really no, you have to." And the occasional comments of those who try to tell me how to do my job. I don't tell anyone how to do their job. I just do mine as best as I can and get the heck on with life. 

Sometimes the pressure is just a lot. Like, really. There have been nights where it has taken me a while to fall asleep because I'm wondering "oh crap, did I forget to do that?" "Did I forget to call someone?" I know one of my biggest issues is that I have SUCH a hard time saying no. Even if I'm so busy and someone asks me to do something, I'll likely stop what I'm doing and do that. I don't like to keep people waiting. 

Shew, needed to get all that off my chest. I feel better now. I think I just need a vacation.