What Kelly wants

This really doesn't have anything to do with anything nursing related. Maybe a few things about just the job in general, but it's just something I've been thinking about today. This guy from church asked me "so, what DO you want?" It didn't take me long to come up with the answer.

I want to live my life without having to constantly explain myself.

"Kelly, why are you still single?"
"Kelly, why don't you work doubles?"
"Kelly, why don't you pick up any extra?"
Or most recently "Kelly, why don't you want a relationship with me?"
"Kelly, why don't you go out and party?"
"Kelly, why don't you just live a little?" (whatever that means).

Listen. I've been explaining myself practically my entire life. Why I'm different. Why don't the cool kids like me? Why don't I fit in? Why don't I have a boyfriend like everyone else does? Why is it that every little thing I do being scrutinized but nobody else's? And then I realized, and as I'm trying to tell and show the world, that I've had everything that I could ever need.

I want to show the world through my example that Jesus is enough. Period. This world, this life of mine, is so temporary. The people and things of this world can and one day will pass away. But God is eternal, forever. All you have to do is seek Him.

I was talking to this same guy earlier and he said that he felt like God isn't listening to him. I said I disagree. I've found in my life that when I felt God wasn't listening, I was subconsciously pushing Him away. He welcomes any and all with open arms. How will you respond? How will I?