Stay in your own lane!
I just finished working 9 days in a row. Yes. You read that correctly. 9. This is what happens when two nurses are scheduled for overlapping vacations. This girl gets buckets and buckets of overtime. I have only one thing to say after such; I AM NEVER DOING THAT AGAIN. I don't EVER need money THAT BADLY.
A few rapid responses, some code greens, investigations, allegations, meetings with the head honchos, mandatory meetings about how we screwed up with the state (which believe me, those meetings needed to happen), suspensions, lots of f bombs and rap music, oh, and C. Diff. On top of that I was rear ended last night and my insurance claim is kind of at an indefinite standstill.
AND A PARTRIDGE IN A PEAR TREE.
In the midst of all that's going on there's a lot of fear; fear of retaliation. fear of the unknown. I for one fear of safety, in the sense that the wrong thing is going to be said at the wrong time and serious consequences will result. But in the meantime, I'm ok. Really. Yes, the situation was very frightening but I can't dwell and live in that fear. I will acknowledge the feelings when they arise, but I have to keep a level head for my patients. It's something I don't think about as often as I should, but 9 times out of 10 our patients are with us because they're really not in a good place. When you're in a hospital, you're never there for a good reason...unless you or someone you know just had a baby. But they're under our case most often because they feel unsafe. They're seeking sanctuary until things in their outside world get sorted. They're turning to us to validate what they need from us, among other things. But if I'm too caught up in my own head space that I can't give 110% for my patients and those around me, then I'm not doing anyone any good, including myself. And after 9 days, I was feeling myself starting to turn out to be a bit of not good. I remember my hands were clenched at the table, waiting for change of shift report to get out, but there was a situation we were all trying to resolve. I was thinking about how I just needed to get out of there. And finally I was just like "can we please just start?" The tone in my voice quieted everyone.
The phrase "stay in your own lane" is one I've been using frequently. I've used it to remind patients of the boundaries that need to be established between one another. It's been a reminder for me to focus and do my due diligence, but then move on. There's a verse in Proverbs (that I'm loosely translating) as "don't look to the left or right but shift your focus straight ahead." (It's 4:25-27). So hopefully all this will resolve and get sorted out and we can go back to the way things were. In the meantime, I just gave my cats catnip and now they appear to be crashing from their high. Ahh, the good life.
A few rapid responses, some code greens, investigations, allegations, meetings with the head honchos, mandatory meetings about how we screwed up with the state (which believe me, those meetings needed to happen), suspensions, lots of f bombs and rap music, oh, and C. Diff. On top of that I was rear ended last night and my insurance claim is kind of at an indefinite standstill.
AND A PARTRIDGE IN A PEAR TREE.
In the midst of all that's going on there's a lot of fear; fear of retaliation. fear of the unknown. I for one fear of safety, in the sense that the wrong thing is going to be said at the wrong time and serious consequences will result. But in the meantime, I'm ok. Really. Yes, the situation was very frightening but I can't dwell and live in that fear. I will acknowledge the feelings when they arise, but I have to keep a level head for my patients. It's something I don't think about as often as I should, but 9 times out of 10 our patients are with us because they're really not in a good place. When you're in a hospital, you're never there for a good reason...unless you or someone you know just had a baby. But they're under our case most often because they feel unsafe. They're seeking sanctuary until things in their outside world get sorted. They're turning to us to validate what they need from us, among other things. But if I'm too caught up in my own head space that I can't give 110% for my patients and those around me, then I'm not doing anyone any good, including myself. And after 9 days, I was feeling myself starting to turn out to be a bit of not good. I remember my hands were clenched at the table, waiting for change of shift report to get out, but there was a situation we were all trying to resolve. I was thinking about how I just needed to get out of there. And finally I was just like "can we please just start?" The tone in my voice quieted everyone.
The phrase "stay in your own lane" is one I've been using frequently. I've used it to remind patients of the boundaries that need to be established between one another. It's been a reminder for me to focus and do my due diligence, but then move on. There's a verse in Proverbs (that I'm loosely translating) as "don't look to the left or right but shift your focus straight ahead." (It's 4:25-27). So hopefully all this will resolve and get sorted out and we can go back to the way things were. In the meantime, I just gave my cats catnip and now they appear to be crashing from their high. Ahh, the good life.
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