Hope for a lost soul
In a few short days, May will be over and June will be upon us all. Is it just me or has 2018 in general gone by rather quickly? Shew! It's been an interesting couple of weeks as the acuity on the unit has been...well, acute. Lots of people coming and going, lots of staff leaving, moving shifts and a few new staff coming along, myself included. I've now been thrown into the hat for staying on here permanently; not without its own set of caveats, but I figured it was to be expected. The facility wants me on contract for 6 months before I can go on as staff. Fine with me, so that process has begun and hopefully I'll hear something soon. In the meantime, I'm looking forward to some New England summer, and I think it's fair to say sianora to the SNOW! Meanwhile, today it's kind of cool with some light rain, low humidity. Yep. I could get used to this.
I still find myself drifting to a conversation I had with a patient. We were just talking about life, circumstances, relationships and how things change. How things change, how life changes, how the people around us change. There was a mention of loved ones, and this patient mentioned their spouse recently passed away and they were the primary caretaker for a number of years. Spouse had Alzheimer's, and I remarked at how hard it must have been to care for someone, especially during the advanced progression of the disease. The response I got almost made me tear up.
"It's not hard if it's someone you love."
I didn't say this out loud, but I thought to myself I hope to find such love one day. I know though that it's not something I'm ready for yet, but in the meantime I'm asking God to make me the best me possible so that when that day comes, I may be a bit more prepared. But it's ok. I'm in a really good place right now. In the same day I had another conversation with another patient, and we were talking about my former area of work; substance abuse. We were talking about some of the steps, getting life back on track and just trying to take one day at a time. Near the end of our conversation, there was a pregnant pause, followed by a contented sigh. "There's hope for this lost soul after all, isn't there?"
In the midst of screaming patients, changing dressings and colostomies, passing pills and running interference from one total care patient to the next, it's nice to have those moments where you can just....talk. It's those moments that I still think....yeah, this is what I went to school for.
I still find myself drifting to a conversation I had with a patient. We were just talking about life, circumstances, relationships and how things change. How things change, how life changes, how the people around us change. There was a mention of loved ones, and this patient mentioned their spouse recently passed away and they were the primary caretaker for a number of years. Spouse had Alzheimer's, and I remarked at how hard it must have been to care for someone, especially during the advanced progression of the disease. The response I got almost made me tear up.
"It's not hard if it's someone you love."
I didn't say this out loud, but I thought to myself I hope to find such love one day. I know though that it's not something I'm ready for yet, but in the meantime I'm asking God to make me the best me possible so that when that day comes, I may be a bit more prepared. But it's ok. I'm in a really good place right now. In the same day I had another conversation with another patient, and we were talking about my former area of work; substance abuse. We were talking about some of the steps, getting life back on track and just trying to take one day at a time. Near the end of our conversation, there was a pregnant pause, followed by a contented sigh. "There's hope for this lost soul after all, isn't there?"
In the midst of screaming patients, changing dressings and colostomies, passing pills and running interference from one total care patient to the next, it's nice to have those moments where you can just....talk. It's those moments that I still think....yeah, this is what I went to school for.
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