Time moves on and people change
I have a lot of thinking to do.
Earlier this week, I received word that my extension was approved and I'll be here in Massachusetts for another 2 months. June 16 will be my last day, possibly longer. Possibly permanent. Yes, you read that correctly. I've fallen in love with the area, the job, my co-workers and the friends I've made here that I'm strongly considering staying permanently. The pay is better, I enjoy the job and like I said, I like the area. But then there's home, Kentucky home, the place I've called home for the last nearly ten years. My family is there, my home is there, and my church family is there. Friends are there, my life has been there. But my family is doing well and living their lives happily; my sister is enjoying being a newlywed, my parents are getting older and are enjoying retirement. My best friend from back home is about to become a mother (!!!!!!!!!!), and then there's me. I'm living my own life as a travel nurse and have been happily doing so for almost 2 years. When I started travel nursing, my mind was thinking Boston, Boston, Boston. Something was drawing me to this area. Or maybe it was someone. I can't help but think that the reason it took me a while to get out here was because God wanted me here. He'd knew how difficult it would be for me to leave, and I can't even think about leaving right now. But thinking about starting all the way over in a new state with a new job scares me.
I'm scared.
I'm scared because I don't know if I'm ready. I'm scared that this will be what God wants me to do and I won't have the gumption to do it. Then what? But at the same time, I'm still very much attached to Kentucky. The good thing is nothing has to be decided right now, but I found myself thinking that if I didn't extend, next Saturday would be my last day here. Mind-boggling, really. I think for now I'm going to get out of the way and give this over to God. I have no doubt He will lead my path and light up whichever route He wants for me.
Earlier this week, I received word that my extension was approved and I'll be here in Massachusetts for another 2 months. June 16 will be my last day, possibly longer. Possibly permanent. Yes, you read that correctly. I've fallen in love with the area, the job, my co-workers and the friends I've made here that I'm strongly considering staying permanently. The pay is better, I enjoy the job and like I said, I like the area. But then there's home, Kentucky home, the place I've called home for the last nearly ten years. My family is there, my home is there, and my church family is there. Friends are there, my life has been there. But my family is doing well and living their lives happily; my sister is enjoying being a newlywed, my parents are getting older and are enjoying retirement. My best friend from back home is about to become a mother (!!!!!!!!!!), and then there's me. I'm living my own life as a travel nurse and have been happily doing so for almost 2 years. When I started travel nursing, my mind was thinking Boston, Boston, Boston. Something was drawing me to this area. Or maybe it was someone. I can't help but think that the reason it took me a while to get out here was because God wanted me here. He'd knew how difficult it would be for me to leave, and I can't even think about leaving right now. But thinking about starting all the way over in a new state with a new job scares me.
I'm scared.
I'm scared because I don't know if I'm ready. I'm scared that this will be what God wants me to do and I won't have the gumption to do it. Then what? But at the same time, I'm still very much attached to Kentucky. The good thing is nothing has to be decided right now, but I found myself thinking that if I didn't extend, next Saturday would be my last day here. Mind-boggling, really. I think for now I'm going to get out of the way and give this over to God. I have no doubt He will lead my path and light up whichever route He wants for me.
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