Be yourself

Sometimes, we just need a little reminder to go back to basics. I've been at my job now for 5 weeks (WOW!!!), and it's been a big period of transition for me. For starters, working 12's has by far been the biggest adjustment. I must say though, I don't really mind them now, but I do miss my 8's from time to time. I'm still not really a fan of getting up at 5 in the morning, but I'm getting used to it. I can't sleep in past 9:30 on my days off anymore. The acuity of both units, for the most part, has been lower as well, which I've quite enjoyed. I'm also getting used to, for the lack of sounding sexist, working with primarily male nurses. For two days in a row, I was the only female nurse...with all male patients. (Please send more estrogen). Needless to say, it was a little bit intimidating. In the 3 days in a row I worked, 2 out of the 3 were quite decent, and one day where it was just extremely hectic and busy and we were all wondering how in the world we were going to make it through. I believe we sent 10 people out in 12 hours....NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I mentioned in my previous post that there have been some who are not quite keen to my high levels of energy. I know I can be a bit wild sometimes, and more often than not my mouth moves faster than my mind does. It's hard, but I am who I am, and I don't intend upon changing that anytime soon....well, ever really. But on this particular day, my high levels of energy were not very well liked and needless to say I got grumbled at. As a result, I went to the other nurse's station where I completed my work, because it was busy and crazy enough as it was, and I thought the best thing to do was just maintain some distance. Later on, I was talking to a co worker and we were talking about the way we were, and he told me that he defended me to another co worker a while back ago. And the advice he gave me was simple; just be yourself.

Be yourself. How many times do we do that? Try to fit in? Change ourselves just because someone doesn't like the way we are? I know I do that. I STILL do that. I'm 26 years old and my teenage tendencies of wanting to fit in sneak up on me all the time. He then added just be yourself, unless you're a mass murderer. Then be someone else. I may make a meme of that one day, who knows. I'm working on that...being myself. I'm constantly working on it. I'll get there. I thank God for His grace, because I know I'm a hot mess 99.9% of the time.