I remember
Seems like just yesterday, I was distraught, distracted, unemployed and miserable. And here I am, one year later after receiving life-changing news. Dressed for a job that I still love, even though I may get the day off today. I'm making it, thanks be to God. He is good. These thoughts I have now I always didn't have.
Without a doubt, last summer was one of the darkest periods of my life. I remember those days of not wanting to get out of bed, not wanting to face the prospect of yet another job rejection. I remember being angry and bitter, after being promised that doors and windows of opportunities would be wide open for me. I remember having moments and days of peace about my lack of job, then onto having moments of resentment the next day. I remember strongly considering leaving Kentucky and going back to Ohio for a while, just to avoid being a responsible adult for a short time. I remember wondering how I was going to make ends meet, because even though the income stopped didn't mean the bills did. I remember telling my sister and friend on this day last year "let's go to Richmond. I need to get out of the house for a bit." I remember receiving the phone call; unable to find my phone right away as it was buried in my purse. I remember going outside and hearing that voice mail, calling back and saying "yes, I'll accept the position." And remembering that after that moment, it was all over. The wondering, the doubting, the searching, the feelings, all of it. Gone. Remembering that God is a faithful God and that He made (and still makes) dreams come true.
Right now you're probably reading this and wondering "so what? Who cares?" Think whatever you choose; I don't write this blog for others and for the satisfaction of seeing another comment or another follower. I write this for me as a reminder. A reminder that there will be dark days ahead, and that there will be days where I want to quit and throw in the towel. But also a reminder of what I have seen, what I have done, and the differences I have made and will continue to make. A reminder that yes I made mistakes and will make more, but I will continue to learn from them. A reminder that God has held me through and through and that He has made me who I am. A reminder of what I felt and what I experienced was real and that sometimes circumstances and situations can knock us down, but that's ok. So long as we get back up, or have someone help us back up. A reminder that no matter what happens, good or bad, that they won't last forever.
When times are good, be happy. But when times are bad, consider this; God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, no one can discover anything about their future. Ecclesiastes 7:14
Without a doubt, last summer was one of the darkest periods of my life. I remember those days of not wanting to get out of bed, not wanting to face the prospect of yet another job rejection. I remember being angry and bitter, after being promised that doors and windows of opportunities would be wide open for me. I remember having moments and days of peace about my lack of job, then onto having moments of resentment the next day. I remember strongly considering leaving Kentucky and going back to Ohio for a while, just to avoid being a responsible adult for a short time. I remember wondering how I was going to make ends meet, because even though the income stopped didn't mean the bills did. I remember telling my sister and friend on this day last year "let's go to Richmond. I need to get out of the house for a bit." I remember receiving the phone call; unable to find my phone right away as it was buried in my purse. I remember going outside and hearing that voice mail, calling back and saying "yes, I'll accept the position." And remembering that after that moment, it was all over. The wondering, the doubting, the searching, the feelings, all of it. Gone. Remembering that God is a faithful God and that He made (and still makes) dreams come true.
Right now you're probably reading this and wondering "so what? Who cares?" Think whatever you choose; I don't write this blog for others and for the satisfaction of seeing another comment or another follower. I write this for me as a reminder. A reminder that there will be dark days ahead, and that there will be days where I want to quit and throw in the towel. But also a reminder of what I have seen, what I have done, and the differences I have made and will continue to make. A reminder that yes I made mistakes and will make more, but I will continue to learn from them. A reminder that God has held me through and through and that He has made me who I am. A reminder of what I felt and what I experienced was real and that sometimes circumstances and situations can knock us down, but that's ok. So long as we get back up, or have someone help us back up. A reminder that no matter what happens, good or bad, that they won't last forever.
When times are good, be happy. But when times are bad, consider this; God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, no one can discover anything about their future. Ecclesiastes 7:14
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