Such a time as this
If I were to need a reminder that God has me exactly where He wants me, then last night was that night. While the night started a bit funky, it turned out better than I anticipated. Much better actually. I had the opportunity to work with someone who had just started a few weeks ago and also had never worked on my unit. We hadn't had the opportunity to talk much until near the end of my shift where I was watching the telly for a second and a movie trailer came on. I said "that looks like Amy Pond from Doctor Who." And then...boom. What happened after that was an on and off hour long conversation about Doctor Who, BBC Sherlock, and David Tennant. But we also had another common denominator; we were both Christians and each shared a bit of our stories, some things God had brought us through, struggles we still wrestled with and so much more.
In a job like mine, it is very difficult to tell others about Jesus without actually coming right out and say it. Some patients have been very receptive of my perspectives, some...not so much. You know how when you did a presentation in school and you received feedback from your teachers or peers, and while there would be a plethora of positive comments there may have been one negative comment. Your mind completely disregards the numerous positive comments and dwells on the one negative one. You know you do it. I do it too and I did it while I was in school. This past week a patient was discharged and it seemed they really didn't have anything good to say about the facility, the staff, anything. I found myself wondering "did I really make a difference in this person's life? Did they come here and get what they needed?" I still don't know. I think that showing the love of Christ to those on the outside that think they don't "deserve" it is one of the hardest tasks as a Christian, but we do our best. And sometimes our best has to be enough. Anyway, I had been thinking and wondering why some people were hard to reach, but then the conversations I had last night gave me a boost. Because in my opinion everyone needs a boost in...whatever. Self-esteem, happiness, faith, and sometimes just conversations from one believer to another. I had never met this co-worker until last night, yet I felt like I was talking to one of my best friends.
As I sit and figure out how to wrap up this thing, I just look around and am listening to my Doctor Who music. God is all around, even in the most unlikely places. Or in the most unlikely people. I truly believe God crossed our paths last night for a reason, for a purpose that I still don't know what yet. I think that's ok though, because in my experience that purpose that you may not be unsure about may reveal itself in one way or another. All we have to do is be open to it.
In a job like mine, it is very difficult to tell others about Jesus without actually coming right out and say it. Some patients have been very receptive of my perspectives, some...not so much. You know how when you did a presentation in school and you received feedback from your teachers or peers, and while there would be a plethora of positive comments there may have been one negative comment. Your mind completely disregards the numerous positive comments and dwells on the one negative one. You know you do it. I do it too and I did it while I was in school. This past week a patient was discharged and it seemed they really didn't have anything good to say about the facility, the staff, anything. I found myself wondering "did I really make a difference in this person's life? Did they come here and get what they needed?" I still don't know. I think that showing the love of Christ to those on the outside that think they don't "deserve" it is one of the hardest tasks as a Christian, but we do our best. And sometimes our best has to be enough. Anyway, I had been thinking and wondering why some people were hard to reach, but then the conversations I had last night gave me a boost. Because in my opinion everyone needs a boost in...whatever. Self-esteem, happiness, faith, and sometimes just conversations from one believer to another. I had never met this co-worker until last night, yet I felt like I was talking to one of my best friends.
As I sit and figure out how to wrap up this thing, I just look around and am listening to my Doctor Who music. God is all around, even in the most unlikely places. Or in the most unlikely people. I truly believe God crossed our paths last night for a reason, for a purpose that I still don't know what yet. I think that's ok though, because in my experience that purpose that you may not be unsure about may reveal itself in one way or another. All we have to do is be open to it.
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