Where it goes from here: leaving 2013 and heading into 2014.
It is the last day of 2013, and let me tell you I am ready for it to be so. This has by far been one of the toughest years of my life. I've completed my last semester of nursing school, endured 240 hours of clinicals in the intensive care unit, where it was very much indeed intensive, graduated from Berea, studied and successfully passed the nursing boards, and for a while became a slave to searching for a job. I was angry, frustrated, depressed, confused and everything in between. Then I found a job, where it has presented its own joys and challenges. I've almost wanted to quit my job and sometimes I've found myself asking "what in the %!%#^@%#@$ have I gotten myself into?" Then more times than not, I've held the hand of a scared patient when she just wanted someone to talk to, I've had others tell me they were glad I was working that day, and I've been so blessed to work alongside a wonderful and talented team. I've surely made flubs, more than I would care to admit, but I've caught flubs that others have made. 2014 is the opportunity to start over; not just to say I'm going to do better but to make it so.
Today, I was getting ready to leave Ohio and drive back to Kentucky as I start back to work tomorrow after 11 days off. I stopped by my pastor's house from the church I grew up in, as he and his wife had my graduation present for me. It's a Bible, which is sitting beside me right now. I didn't realize it until just now but there's an inscription in it. I won't share its entirety, but I have included a part of it below:
As you have already experienced, the journey towards a goal is filled with detours and disappointments, as well as joy and satisfaction. It is the journey as much as the goal that is important in life. Within these pages you will find encouragement, comfort, direction, peace hope and so much more.
I am not trying to preach, but if it was not for my relationship with God, then I would not have made it to where I am right now. There was a time or two where I wanted to throw in the towel and quit school, quit studying for the boards, quit my job, quit living in Kentucky and move back to Ohio. But God placed in me a drive, of what I'm still not sure of, but that drive kept me going. A flame deep inside me continued to flicker. It would have been easy to let it burn out. It would have been easy to grab an extinguisher and put it out myself, but I didn't. And I won't. I do not know what 2014 holds for me, but I am determined to make it better than this year. That means doing my best and clinging to my faith and to the One who gave it all to me in the first place. The road I am on is by no means an easy one, but it is the one God chose for me, and I want to glorify Him as I continue down this path as an RN. Lord knows I still have a long way to go, but I'm ready for whatever 2014 may bring. Time to let this year go and say good-bye to the negatives but hello to the lessons that I gained and how they will help me in the challenges that are sure to come. To quote the Tenth Doctor (just started watching Doctor Who...ahhh thank you): "Look at these people, these human beings. Consider their potential." (I didn't include the rest because it's silly....hahaha)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today, I was getting ready to leave Ohio and drive back to Kentucky as I start back to work tomorrow after 11 days off. I stopped by my pastor's house from the church I grew up in, as he and his wife had my graduation present for me. It's a Bible, which is sitting beside me right now. I didn't realize it until just now but there's an inscription in it. I won't share its entirety, but I have included a part of it below:
As you have already experienced, the journey towards a goal is filled with detours and disappointments, as well as joy and satisfaction. It is the journey as much as the goal that is important in life. Within these pages you will find encouragement, comfort, direction, peace hope and so much more.
I am not trying to preach, but if it was not for my relationship with God, then I would not have made it to where I am right now. There was a time or two where I wanted to throw in the towel and quit school, quit studying for the boards, quit my job, quit living in Kentucky and move back to Ohio. But God placed in me a drive, of what I'm still not sure of, but that drive kept me going. A flame deep inside me continued to flicker. It would have been easy to let it burn out. It would have been easy to grab an extinguisher and put it out myself, but I didn't. And I won't. I do not know what 2014 holds for me, but I am determined to make it better than this year. That means doing my best and clinging to my faith and to the One who gave it all to me in the first place. The road I am on is by no means an easy one, but it is the one God chose for me, and I want to glorify Him as I continue down this path as an RN. Lord knows I still have a long way to go, but I'm ready for whatever 2014 may bring. Time to let this year go and say good-bye to the negatives but hello to the lessons that I gained and how they will help me in the challenges that are sure to come. To quote the Tenth Doctor (just started watching Doctor Who...ahhh thank you): "Look at these people, these human beings. Consider their potential." (I didn't include the rest because it's silly....hahaha)
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!
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