The road goes ever on

I figured I'd share somewhat of an update now that I am 3 weeks out of Berea. I'm actually enjoying not having to constantly worry about school, what clinicals will be like or what paper/project/presentation/Prep-U quiz is due this week or this day. Though I miss the routine college had, it's been somewhat nice to wake up in the morning and not know what I'm going to be doing. I've enjoyed this...to a point. Now that it's been 3 weeks, to be honest I'm a bit restless for several reasons. First being, I still am unemployed. I have not landed a job yet and have only had one interview almost 4 weeks ago. I put in probably 10 applications a week, sometimes more sometimes less, but I think I've reached over 50 that I've put in total. It's tiring and mundane, but I do what I have to do. I'm hoping that just SOON I'll start to hear back from some I've put in before I graduated, like the ones I applied for in March or April. I've had several applications at different places be referred on to the hiring officials, but nothing farther than that with the exception of the one interview. I'm trying to keep my head up and remain hopeful, but sometimes it's really discouraging. I've had more rejections than referrals, and I suppose that's expected. Holly keeps telling me to "get used to it." I don't want to, but I think I am starting to get used to rejection. I wrote on Facebook today that I just want to use what God has blessed me with. I pray, every day that something opens up. Good things come to those who wait...

Second reason, I sit for the boards on Wednesday. Yes. THIS Wednesday. I have studied, every day since I scheduled, which was at the beginning of this month, for at least 2 hours a day. I know I'll do well, but there's still a lingering nag in the back of my head that keeps creeping up on me and that once I sit for the test I'm going to completely freeze up. Yet I've studied for my minimum of 2 hours a day and I still feel like that's not enough time. I'm going to keep pressing on, studying, waiting, praying and trusting that God has brought me this far for a reason. I've attached a song at the end of this post that has really been speaking to my heart. Please pray not only for me, but for my classmates too. Some of them too are testing this week, and the majority of them are still looking for jobs as well. God will give me perfect peace, and He has put all the pieces in play. I just need to trust myself more than anything.

 This song is speaking to me this week