A shock
Realized: I'm behind again. It happens. It actually has been a rather busy week. So LAST WEEK is what I will be talking about...since this week is not over yet. Last Thursday we finished up our operation storm the schools for asthma awareness information. Our mantra by the end of the day was "we need to keep our mouths shut because we keep getting in trouble!" No, we actually didn't get in trouble. We just got suckered into doing ANOTHER project which is promising to be quite exciting. We were at the last school of the day and a conversation here and there led us students to doing a nutrition presentation to a plethora of 4th and 5th graders! Stay tuned for that; it's promising to be pretty exciting. We are excited about it and planning is in the works!
No need to dwell on that anymore. I want to talk about Saturday now. Ever since I started doing maternity clinicals, my dream was to either see a set of twins being born or to see a set of twins in the nursery. Well...neither happened. I saw a set of twins all right, but in the NICU born at 29 weeks. When I walked into the NICU I saw the smallest babies I have ever seen in my life. Both of them were barely over 2 pounds and could fit easily in my outstretched hands. It was a shock; I was floored that at one point we all used to be that small. It hit home for me as well, me being a twin and being born early, though we weren't born THAT early (Holly and I were born at 34 weeks). Seeing those twins was a bit overwhelming at times, because their journey is far from over. This realization hit me when I was helping the nurse bathe one of them, and my trembling hands had to hold one of them at one point. I forgot to breathe almost, because that life, that small life was so...real. There are so many debates and differing opinions as to when "life" begins, but either way you look at it, life is. It is. And seeing life that small was something that in my college arsenal I will never forget. It's scary, amazing, breath taking and of course saddening.
As I write this, preparation for next semester's capstone are in the works. I marvel at the fact at how much time has passed since I started this blog. How I've grown. My joys, mistakes, and stories are all out here, raw and unprotected. And yet when I go back and read this from time to time I am like "this has been school for me! And it's sucked a lot, but it's been awesome at the same time!" The benefits of what I am about to complete reap more fruit than any suckiness. Then things change. New challenges present themselves and we as nursing students have to decide how we are going to take the reins, because dropping them is not an option at this point. I have just experienced this with my synthesis placement. I had these big wild awesome plans of exactly how my schedule was going to work out. Those plans changed. I am not angry that they changed, a little bummed, but not angry or bitter. Maybe this is God's way of paving a new way for me that I don't realize yet. Whatever it is I'm choosing to take these reins and ride onto a new experience in an area I have not really seen a lot of. So where will it take me? Again, not sure yet. But that's the thing I've learned about being here at Berea as a nursing student; sometimes choices change. Decisions change. Plans change. And you have to decide what to do about it.
No need to dwell on that anymore. I want to talk about Saturday now. Ever since I started doing maternity clinicals, my dream was to either see a set of twins being born or to see a set of twins in the nursery. Well...neither happened. I saw a set of twins all right, but in the NICU born at 29 weeks. When I walked into the NICU I saw the smallest babies I have ever seen in my life. Both of them were barely over 2 pounds and could fit easily in my outstretched hands. It was a shock; I was floored that at one point we all used to be that small. It hit home for me as well, me being a twin and being born early, though we weren't born THAT early (Holly and I were born at 34 weeks). Seeing those twins was a bit overwhelming at times, because their journey is far from over. This realization hit me when I was helping the nurse bathe one of them, and my trembling hands had to hold one of them at one point. I forgot to breathe almost, because that life, that small life was so...real. There are so many debates and differing opinions as to when "life" begins, but either way you look at it, life is. It is. And seeing life that small was something that in my college arsenal I will never forget. It's scary, amazing, breath taking and of course saddening.
As I write this, preparation for next semester's capstone are in the works. I marvel at the fact at how much time has passed since I started this blog. How I've grown. My joys, mistakes, and stories are all out here, raw and unprotected. And yet when I go back and read this from time to time I am like "this has been school for me! And it's sucked a lot, but it's been awesome at the same time!" The benefits of what I am about to complete reap more fruit than any suckiness. Then things change. New challenges present themselves and we as nursing students have to decide how we are going to take the reins, because dropping them is not an option at this point. I have just experienced this with my synthesis placement. I had these big wild awesome plans of exactly how my schedule was going to work out. Those plans changed. I am not angry that they changed, a little bummed, but not angry or bitter. Maybe this is God's way of paving a new way for me that I don't realize yet. Whatever it is I'm choosing to take these reins and ride onto a new experience in an area I have not really seen a lot of. So where will it take me? Again, not sure yet. But that's the thing I've learned about being here at Berea as a nursing student; sometimes choices change. Decisions change. Plans change. And you have to decide what to do about it.
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