10 down with 1 more YEAR to go!!
Sorry for the plain background. Working on fixing the layout...the other one made my already poor vision even poorer. So in the meantime, remember that sometimes plain is ok! :] In the midst of eating leftovers and still thinking....I'm DONE. Am I really done with ANOTHER year???!!! YES!!!! This time next year I will be shaking in my shoes wondering where in the world someone will employ me. But I shant fear that, but next Saturday (the 5th) marks the one year mark. Yes. The one year mark until the VERY end!
After a rough start to this semester, I am happy to say that I am through with 2 more rotations! Coming up next fall is OB and Community Health. It wasn't an easy start, and everything was bound and determined to bring me down. But here I stand! Gosh. Sorry...still trying to process this. I still remember my very first day of clinicals at the nursing home. I remember walking into my patient's room with a Lovenox injection, thinking "I have to POKE HER SKIN and actually GIVE THIS?!" I was so scared to even touch my patients because I was afraid I'd contract some horrible, rare and life-threatening disease. No...not really, but I was afraid of getting hands-on right from the get-go. And now, after another year gone, the life preserves are gone. It's amazing after a year, even after one semester how much more confident I am in myself. I can walk into a patient's room and tell myself "I know what I am doing." No more hand holding! EEK!!!! I'm a big kid now!!!
Having said that, I need to share a story of one of my very recent struggles. I had an...incident with administering a medication, or near administering a medication. In other words, I made an error that a nursing student at my level (interpret that as you will) should not be making. Totally let it ruin my day. Couldn't think about anything else but that mistake all day; spent the rest of the night beating myself up for it. My clinical instructor asked me why I did what I did. I fumbled for the "right" answer, but came up empty. Later it hit me...I did know the answer. It was right in front of me. The reason? I'm human. Things like this happen, but we learn from them. I could have pitched a fit and beat myself up more, but what's the point? The more I beat myself up, the more my self-confidence dropped. But later on, I realized that HEY. Mistakes HAPPEN!!!! It doesn't mean I'm stupid or I don't know what I'm doing. They HAPPEN. Period. Anyway, there is a point to all of this. I soon realized that I CAN do this. I would not be HERE at this college if I could not do this. Shoot, I've been told by people throughout my life I wouldn't even get this far. Probably would barely make it through high school and most likely not go to college. I REFUSED to believe that and it was soon after I heard these words that I decided to go to nursing school. And today was a wonderful day! I walked in with a positive attitude, not knowing what to expect and had an AWESOME day!!!!!!!! Had two very wonderful patients and had a relatively easy day....not going to be getting any of those anymore anytime soon. But I enjoyed it while I could!
Ok, enough pep talks and "you can do it" words, I just want to wrap up with...HOLYCRAPI'MALMOSTDONE!! I am not a doomed race and Ima gonna get a degree IN ONE YEAR!! After that hopefully find a job in something OTHER THAN MED/SURG. *cough* Don't know when I'll be updating this again...maybe over the summer. Not really sure. Just keep your all's eyes opened.
Millions didn't make it
But I was one of the ones who did
After a rough start to this semester, I am happy to say that I am through with 2 more rotations! Coming up next fall is OB and Community Health. It wasn't an easy start, and everything was bound and determined to bring me down. But here I stand! Gosh. Sorry...still trying to process this. I still remember my very first day of clinicals at the nursing home. I remember walking into my patient's room with a Lovenox injection, thinking "I have to POKE HER SKIN and actually GIVE THIS?!" I was so scared to even touch my patients because I was afraid I'd contract some horrible, rare and life-threatening disease. No...not really, but I was afraid of getting hands-on right from the get-go. And now, after another year gone, the life preserves are gone. It's amazing after a year, even after one semester how much more confident I am in myself. I can walk into a patient's room and tell myself "I know what I am doing." No more hand holding! EEK!!!! I'm a big kid now!!!
Having said that, I need to share a story of one of my very recent struggles. I had an...incident with administering a medication, or near administering a medication. In other words, I made an error that a nursing student at my level (interpret that as you will) should not be making. Totally let it ruin my day. Couldn't think about anything else but that mistake all day; spent the rest of the night beating myself up for it. My clinical instructor asked me why I did what I did. I fumbled for the "right" answer, but came up empty. Later it hit me...I did know the answer. It was right in front of me. The reason? I'm human. Things like this happen, but we learn from them. I could have pitched a fit and beat myself up more, but what's the point? The more I beat myself up, the more my self-confidence dropped. But later on, I realized that HEY. Mistakes HAPPEN!!!! It doesn't mean I'm stupid or I don't know what I'm doing. They HAPPEN. Period. Anyway, there is a point to all of this. I soon realized that I CAN do this. I would not be HERE at this college if I could not do this. Shoot, I've been told by people throughout my life I wouldn't even get this far. Probably would barely make it through high school and most likely not go to college. I REFUSED to believe that and it was soon after I heard these words that I decided to go to nursing school. And today was a wonderful day! I walked in with a positive attitude, not knowing what to expect and had an AWESOME day!!!!!!!! Had two very wonderful patients and had a relatively easy day....not going to be getting any of those anymore anytime soon. But I enjoyed it while I could!
Ok, enough pep talks and "you can do it" words, I just want to wrap up with...HOLYCRAPI'MALMOSTDONE!! I am not a doomed race and Ima gonna get a degree IN ONE YEAR!! After that hopefully find a job in something OTHER THAN MED/SURG. *cough* Don't know when I'll be updating this again...maybe over the summer. Not really sure. Just keep your all's eyes opened.
Millions didn't make it
But I was one of the ones who did
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